an off Saturday that really wasn't so off

Today was mine and WP's first Saturday off in a few weeks together. Unfortunately (and somewhat fortunately, I guess) we spent our whole day on the road and in a first time homebuyers class that is necessary to take in order for us to use the type loan we're using. We left our house at 6:30 this morning and arrived at our class over 30 minutes late in Bay St. Louis because we weren't certain where the building was. The class ended at 1:15 and we got home around 4, I think. We were both so tired we fell asleep watching football...then Archer got home. ;o) No more nice Saturday napping! Anyway, the good side of all that is that we got our certificate necessary to go ahead with our loan process. YAY! The loan application will be sent to the mortgage company Tuesday. Fingers crossed and prayers sent up...we may soon be homeowners!
VERY EXCITING!

Tears

I have seriously teared up 2 times today, and actually cried once. Archer said, "Mommy, does it hurt? Are you sad?" I just had to sit there and let him hug my neck while I gathered myself. I am emotional, sensitive, and overwhelmed. Today is the day that we are to sign the agreement on the house. I am so lost and unaware of everything. I try to be on top of all this information and in control. But I am out of control. This seller is in control. We want this house so bad. I am not scared of the monthly payment for all the years to come. I am scared of the process. My realtor talked "down" to me earlier and hurt my feelings. I am a very inquisitive person and have been my entire life. I asked a few questions and she called me hesistant and threatened to show the house to someone else. Why be rude? She knows I am scared and worried and completely overwhelmed. It's so unfortunate that she's the realtor and the owner of the home because it's buyer vs. seller in every conversation we have. I would rather post a question to my realtor who then can deal with the seller or seller's realtor.
DEEEEEP BREATH.....